Trust?

I woke up in Las Vegas last night.
Only to realise I left my heart in America.

It's so hard to find words that are filled with sincerity now. Where have the good gone to? Where did the evil come from? The innocence and pureness of the world that I was once so familiar to, has vanished.

The horizon is diminishing at an increasing rate every day, every night. There seemed to be no more boundary between human beings and the world.

I can't differentiate between the good and bad now. Who is truthful and who is not? Who is the one you should trust and who is the one you should be cautious of? I really have no idea anymore.

My world is becoming increasingly difficult to guess each day and it is using up my energy too quickly.

I guess, some people are just not really worthy of your trust and help.


Love,
Christianna.

Photoshoot

Photo shoot at Singapore Botanic Gardens went well today. Hopefully and really hopefully the photos will turn out good and alright for submission to Boss.

I went out with mom for the first time in ages to SHOP. And I only bought a new pair of jeans and a really nice necklace. Then mom was like shopping for brother's clothes? Hello? What about me?

I saw this really nice shorts and top that I want in my wardrobe now!

But I need to save up remember? So I really have to convince my mom that I have to have them if not I'll die so that she will kindly sponsor my expenses.

But wait, I really have to save up. Seriously, just look at the rate the money in my bank is depleting at. I think my mom will suffer a heart attack the next time she check my bankbook.

I think one day I should shock her with a $2,000 credit-card bill.

Wouldn't it be fun?


Love,
Christianna.

Templates

I am currently exploring the blog templates on Blogger. I realised changing a blog skin can be so easy, just with a click on your mouse and poof! It's all done. Except that the templates offered are not very nice aren't they?

Oh well, Damien Lock Heart hasn't been producing good blog skins. So please bear with my blog for the time being (Or forever). I do not have the energy to spend 3 hours decoding the HTML codes and to figure out what is what.

Currently most of the tests/quizzes are over, for the week. I still have one more to go and I really should stop procrastinating if not I'd really be wasting time.

Tomorrow will be a brand new start of the calendar project photo shoot, this time I really really pray hard and cross my fingers that all the photos will be up to expectations. On Sunday, there will be an amazing race, teamed up with a few friends to attend this event. I hope it will be fun too.

I need to go shopping for Monday, I haven't got any nice black clothes for Monday.

Today is my brother's birthday, I hope he will grow up
and stop bullying me.

Love,
Christianna.

Bugs

It's been bugging me, I thought I could handle all these bad comments. But I can't.

Just imagine 4 people saying the same thing over and over again to you, including your mom. It's unlikely your imaginations wouldn't go wild. That's why I'm confused and upset with myself. Just imagine all the comments you're hearing are not going towards what you want to do, simply because you can't ignore these comments, simply because it's hard to ignore all these unwanted comments.

I am under tremendous stress right now. I can't seem to find a perfect solution to all my worries and uncertainties. I don't know who I should trust now, my mom? My friends? Or the person I'm trying to protect so badly.

All those comments I'm receiving don't seem to be coming good, and the rest don't seem too good either. So please don't say, please don't tell me what to do now. Just leave me alone.

Life's not that good after all. And honestly, what am I doing at such hours when I should be sleeping?


Love,
Christianna.